Processing...

It's been a while I feel like that I've sat down and actually processed what I was feeling and thinking so the following are some of the things that I've thought about, written and prayed about, discussed, and now I'll post it here...
-The Urgency of the Gospel- how dare I act as if it is not important at all or doesn't matter or go about saying it in a nonchalant way as if it carries no weight because it does... huge weight to my family, my students, roommates, friends, connections... pretty much everyone. It matters... end of discussion and I need to act like and talk like it matters because again, it does.
-Love- it's required, it's not something that is optional for me at this point and yes I want to scream and pull my hair out and act like a psycho on a daily basis, and let's be honest, I have a lot of these moments... yet when it all comes down to it, love must be core. I wear a ring that says, "Keep on loving" for the reason that it is not natural for me to do it, I must put forth effort in order to be able to do so.
-Importance of People- bottom line, because of the Urgency of the Gospel and Love, people are at the core and knowing they are valued is a much bigger deal than we think. So yesterday, after I freaked out on one of my boys because he was being ridiculous and everyone knew it, today I knew that it is part of life that I get angry but it is too easy to just be mad all the time. I must do something different, or otherwise I look like everyone else to everyone else and I just can't have that. That's a sweet word I like to call "settling" and it's just not something that I know that much about.
-Other- There are so many other things that I am processing so of course, I'll just make a list...
1. how do I get through to those who believe something totally different
2. how do I know the right time to share with those people
3. I want to hear the voice of God speak clearly and with weight in my life again and it be something that I acknowledge, not ignore.
4. Sharing with those who mean the most to me
5. Continuing to connect with people who will push me to be better and love Jesus more and step outside of me when needed (as in every second) so that He is seen and not me.
6. Prayer, prayer, prayer... need it more and more and more.
7. Last but not least, as always, may I continue to the be the change that I wish to see in the world. Who know that Gandhi's words would speak volumes later... but then again, Jesus's has carried longer.... should have known.

Happy weekend to you and may you continue to change, grow, be bold, take heart, and realize that you have been placed in the life of someone and you may never know the impact that you have on them.
Love, Melis