I'm somewhat relieved that God didn't have that written in the Bible. Today I do feel like it should be. I was driving to drop some stuff off and I was so overwhelmed with this feeling of a need to go. It has been driving me crazy. For example, net week is Spring Break and I am really hoping for a day to go to California to just drive, to clear my head, to think for a few hours, to breathe. You would think I have a lot of time to do that and don't get me wrong, I do. There's something about not being at home or sitting in the comfort of my Panera booth that makes me think a little more.
Over the last couple of weeks, I have been so bummed that I'm not going to Africa this summer. It's really not so I can tell people that I'm going or get everyone hyped about it. I just feel a little piece of me has died without going. I think that's what drove me to go to school away from Georgia home and drove me right out to Vegas after college and to travel to the UK, Chicago, NYC, and live in Florida for the summers when I was in college. I don't consider myself at all the adventurous type... more of the "I can talk myself (or you can talk me) into doing ridiculous things that I almost have an anxiety attack in the process an then I'll be fine." I doubt you call that adventure. I doubt anyone calls that anything except insanity. All that to say... over the last couple of weeks, I have had this aching to go see a missionary family in Central America I know, to serve with them, to love on them, to see a different side of missionary life than what I have seen before.... to really convince myself to learn Spanish. It has consumed my spare time and thoughts even this weekend with so many other things to think about! Conversations with other people (particularly about their missions experiences) have made me think about it even more... I did also look up plane ticket prices (did I mention that?). It's much more affordable and realistic for me this summer.... Africa just isn't. I'm still going to work with Vanessa on Ignite Africa school and hopefully more stuff (I'm excited about this!)... and I'm looking forward to (for the first time since I've lived here) spending a lot of time in Vegas... it will give me some time for some day trips!
I'm in the process of some "Go Moments" which are "God moments" and I'm excited about where they'll take me. Pray for obedience and a clear mind for me to hear from Him.
May you go where He wants, love those He places in your path and be waiting for every moment where you could be Jesus and be the most like Him... when you give. (and if you have extra time, listen to this past week's sermon from Hope (hopechurchonline.com... it should be posted soon)... if you haven't thought about the concept of giving your life away... let Pastor Vance explain.
Blessings in your comings and goings this week! -Melis
